Currently Listening Me and My Gang By Rascal Flatts What Hurts the Most see related

This Is the TRUE Song of MY Life.....

WHAT HURTS THE MOST

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house 
That don’t bother me 
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out 
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while 
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me 
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok 
But that’s not what gets me 

What hurts the most 
Was being so close 
And having so much to say 
And watching you walk away 
And never knowing 
What could have been 
And not seeing that loving you 
Is what I was tryin’ to do 

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go 
But I’m doin’ It 
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone 
Still Harder 
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret 
But I know if I could do it over 
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart 
That I left unspoken 

What hurts the most 
Is 
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house 
That don’t bother me 
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out 
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while 
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me 
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok 
But that’s not what gets me 

What hurts the most 
Was being so close 
And having so much to say 
And watching you walk away 
And never knowing 
What could have been 
And not seeing that loving you 
Is what I was tryin’ to do 

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go 
But I’m doin’ It 
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone 
Still Harder 
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret 
But I know if I could do it over 
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart 
That I left unspoken 

What hurts the most 
Is being so close 
And having so much to say 
And watching you walk away 
And never knowing 
What could have been 
And not seeing that loving you 
Is what I was trying to do 

What hurts the most 
Is being so close 
And having so much to say 
And watching you walk away 
And never knowing 
What could have been 
And not seeing that loving you 
Is what I was trying to do 

Not seeing that loving you 
That’s what I was trying to do 
being so close 
And having so much to say 
And watching you walk away 
And never knowing 
What could have been 
And not seeing that loving you 
Is what I was trying to do 

What hurts the most 
Is being so close 
And having so much to say 
And watching you walk away 
And never knowing 
What could have been 
And not seeing that loving you 
Is what I was trying to do 

Not seeing that loving you 
That’s what I was trying to do 

~Rascal Flatts~

So many people take songs for granted and don't bother really listening to the song...well, this song is one that I acftually choose to listen to and it amazing how much one song could mean to a single person!!!
Next time you hear a song...actually listen to the words, not the beat, but the true meaning of why the artist choose to write the song...their purpose and feelings!!!
This might seem like a random thing but it really hit me today how much the words to this song effected me!

Yesterday was fun!!! I had to get up really early because I had to be at the airport at nine thirty in the morning to pick up my SISTER!!!  I was getting soo impatient, it seemed like forever till her plane finally landed and unboarded!...but eventually I saw her coming down the escalador!!! It was soo excited, tired, and hungry!!  Right after we collected her luggage, we headed to panera and got food.  Once home, since we were going out of town today we had to make a cake, and once we were done we picked up Caitie and went to target and chick-fil-a....and then took her home!  After we dropped her off we went to the mall and went shopping!!!  After a sucessful shopping trip...both Genee and I got a shirt (the same shirt...go figure) and I got a cami, we both went and got our nails done!! Then we picked Katie Mo up and went home.  

Right now im really really bored...I'm currently riding in the car, on the internet (my dad has a internet pc card) and im just chillin.  I'm also really hungry!!!! I think im gonna go and take a nap...later!

Currently Listening Goodbye My Lover, Pt. 1 By James Blunt Goodbye my Lover see related

who knows....

Wow...The past few days have been awesome!!!  On Tuesday, since it was the fourth I went to the lake with Katie Moore, and met up with Jennifer, Sarah I, Megan B, and Andi D.  It was a TON of fun!!  Once I got there we chilled in the water, went swimming, took the jet ski and out went on the boat.  Around dinner time, all of us piled onto the neighbors boat and went to get dinner on the lake, and watch the fire works.  The fire works were ok...they wern't amazing but they were still really cool, Im pretty sure the best firework was the one that showed up like a smiley face once lit.  On our way back about 100 boats were going back to their own docks at the same time, no joke.  As we are going two huge boats are driving like they are crazy going really really fast even though there is not enough room or place to do it, which caused a really really big wave that our little *toupon* (haha megan) Pontune boat caught, which made the front, where Katie, Jane, Tom, and two of the neighbors were sitting, go straight down into the water.  Once the water ended up hitting it was like a solid wall, that took everything out in its place...my purse and self were soaked, which carried my cell phone, ipod, and camera.  Once we got back to the house I dried out everything and checked my phone immeditally...it was able to send, recieve, and show my messages, and missed calls, yet I wasnt able to talk or hear anything through the ear piece...I was deff. PISSED!!! Then I checked on my ipod, and luckely since I had a cover on it, it was fine, and then my camera which was destroyed!!!  
Later, around 11:40ish I recieved a call from Will, which was both good, yet and unexpected thing! It was really really good to hear from him since its been such a long time.  I talked to him on the phone for a while, catching up, and just talking like we use to, which was good for me, because I do miss him...

Wednesday Katie, Megan and I all woke up somewhat late and decided to tan!!! Once we were offically buring up we jumped into the lake and chilled on a huge blow up matress almost!!! It deff. was a blast, talking, tanning, yet being cool all at the same time was awesome!! Yesterday was pretty simple mostly just chillin at the lake, swimming and going on the jet ski again.  Later that night we just chilled, watched a movie, and went to bed kinda early since we were all up sooo freaking late last night.

Today I came home from the lake and went straight to voice lessons with Mrs. Lavender, which was fun...I LOVE SINGING!!! haha no matter what bothers me during the week, as long as I sing I am in an better mood instantly!! After voice lessons I went directly to work. Once I got there since I was a little early, I tanned and ended up seeing Will before he drove home.  It really was good to see him, it had been such a long time, I guess seeing him really showed me how much I missed him, or should I say my hug to him gave it away....so he says.  Im about to leave work and go home and do my laundry, and get ready for Genee to come TOMORROW!!! Which means I have to get up early to be at the air port, but you know what...I dont care because I wanna see my sister!

 Kt

Currently Listening Goodbye My Lover, Pt. 1 By James Blunt see related

This is the Song of my life story.....

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.(x2)

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.(x2)

**If it wasnt for Kirstin O'Conner Bacheldor....I never would of actually listened to the words!!!**
I love you KB!!

wow...

Wow...I can't believe that it has been almost a year since I was on my xanga site.  Reading back over everything feels so weird, because part of it doesnt seem like it was a year ago, however other events (i.e school) seems like forever ago.  Over the past year many things happened...school, prom, summer and everything in between!!!

Currently I am working at Sun Source tanning salon...its fun but kinda boring right now since its just starting up...hopefully it will get busier later on during the summer once the word gets around...

My summer has been pretty much boring and uneventful...my life has been working at Sun Source, modeling at either Carolina Place, Concord Mills, or Northlake malls, and chillin around the house...I finally went to the pool a few days ago, but havnt been back since.  Im really excited because Genee is coming up to Charlotte on Friday and on Saturday Genee, Katie Mo, possibly Alyssa and I are leaving to go to HILTON HEAD for a week!!! Its deff. gonna be a blast!! I love my girls!

Kirstin is deff. my best/ goofiest/ most retarded friends on the planet, yet I still Love her like crazy!!!  Lately she and I have almost been inserperable!!!